I don't know if it's due to getting ready for a busy time at work with the start of the new year, or simply enjoying my time playing with Ella, or watching too much Olympics, but I find that I'm losing focus just a bit on the whole "hurry up and get pregnant" plan that I was feeling earlier. After that crazy long cycle in May-June, I think that last month's minimalist approach was exactly what I needed. I'm glad I listened (for once) to that still small voice telling me to let go a bit. Don't get me wrong--I desperately want to be pregnant again, but I feel like God has given me peace for where I am right now. It feels...healthy, to want something and yet still be happy with what I have.
Have I mentioned that I have started running? I've always hated running, and I still can't say that I enjoy it. But it's healthy, right? And I want to be healthy--mainly int the hopes of getting pregnant again; but also so that I can be a good role model for Ella. My RE wanted me to be doing an hour of cardio every day--he's going to have to be happy with a quick 15 minute run around our neighborhood. I know that 15 minutes is hardly anything, but I admit that I'm quite proud of how quickly I have built up my endurance and can now push Ella around our "big block" in her stroller without too much effort. And since I'm trying to become a runner (or at least someone who "pretends" to be a runner"), I figured that I needed to have some new running shoes. So these are my new favorite purchase:
I know they look silly, but I love them! (And I love, love, love my little running buddy in the background). Who knows--perhaps my RE is on to something with increasing my cardio. My last cycle--when I really started to try to make an effort to run--was much shorter than the last (when I was simply trying to eat healthy and do my crunches and pushups). It certainly can't hurt--if anything, maybe it's actually helping me to shift my focus a bit.
Today's blessing was the chance to sleep in to 6:30! I know that still seems so early, but my normal time to wake up is usually 5:00. It felt good! And Ella is apparently also sleeping in this morning as well, which gives me a chance for some much needed "me time", followed by a run...whenever she wakes up.