So to follow up on yesterday's post...I'm guessing that I'm not pregnant. But notice that I say "guessing", because I'm still not convinced of the validity of the tests. But the question is--which test is wrong?
This morning's re-re-test looked like yesterday's--in the sense that it was both negative and the control/test-line didn't emerge (and trust me, I know how to properly take a pregnancy test--so there was no user-error on my part). I'm thinking that perhaps this was a bad batch of tests--perhaps Tuesday's positive test had too much dye (if such a thing is possible), or these last two didn't have enough.
With two out of three negative tests, and the fact that Tuesday's test was initially negative before somehow mysteriously turning positive, I'm guessing that I'm not actually pregnant. I didn't think that a "false positive" was possible--I thought that there must be some HCG in the urine to make that line emerge--but maybe they do exist. I'm not going to point fingers or name names, but let's just say that a certain brand that suggests "clarity" and a "color of the rainbow" was at fault.
I'll admit that I'm a little disappointed, but I'm still feeling a reassuring sense of peace that I know can only come from God. I have been abundantly blessed with Ella. I would love the chance to bless her with a brother or sister, but she's more amazing than I could imagine, and if she is the only child I ever get to welcome into this world, God is still so good in blessing me with her.
Yesterday's blessing was seeing a great lightning show on my way home from work. It really was beautiful, and it was so great to watch it after a long day.