Thursday, August 25, 2011

One of These Things is Not Like the Others

So to follow up on yesterday's post...I'm guessing that I'm not pregnant.  But notice that I say "guessing", because I'm still not convinced of the validity of the tests.  But the question is--which test is wrong?

This morning's re-re-test looked like yesterday's--in the sense that it was both negative and the control/test-line didn't emerge (and trust me, I know how to properly take a pregnancy test--so there was no user-error on my part).  I'm thinking that perhaps this was a bad batch of tests--perhaps Tuesday's positive test had too much dye (if such a thing is possible), or these last two didn't have enough.

With two out of three negative tests, and the fact that Tuesday's test was initially negative before somehow mysteriously turning positive, I'm guessing that I'm not actually pregnant.  I didn't think that a "false positive" was possible--I thought that there must be some HCG in the urine to make that line emerge--but maybe they do exist.  I'm not going to point fingers or name names, but let's just say that a certain brand that suggests "clarity" and a "color of the rainbow" was at fault.

I'll admit that I'm a little disappointed, but I'm still feeling a reassuring sense of peace that I know can only come from God.  I have been abundantly blessed with Ella.  I would love the chance to bless her with a brother or sister, but she's more amazing than I could imagine, and if she is the only child I ever get to welcome into this world, God is still so good in blessing me with her.

Yesterday's blessing was seeing a great lightning show on my way home from work.  It really was beautiful, and it was so great to watch it after a long day.

4 comments:

  1. "I would love the chance to bless her with a brother or sister, but she's more amazing than I could imagine, and if she is the only child I ever get to welcome into this world, God is still so good in blessing me with her."

    My sentiments exactly. I would love more kids, but the fact that we were even blessed with our one considering our fertility situation is a miracle in itself. And I am thankful.

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  2. Awe I am sorry that it was not a positive this morning. You have such a great outlook though. Praying for you.

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  3. It will be when it will be. Your outlook couldn't be better and I'm thinking and praying for you as you continue to build your family, whether it be in the immediate future or down the road. As we all start to try for #2 - I'm so glad we will be there for each other as with the first and even before.

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  4. It is blessing that you can count your blessings each day regardless how discouraged you may be. You are a true inspiration of God's faith. Hang in there. In His time...He makes all things beautiful.

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