Sunday, December 20, 2009

I Take It All Back

Remember all of those glowing things I said about tracking my temperature?  Well, I take it all back.  Okay, maybe not all of it, but I didn't get any warning that my period was coming.  Oh well.  At least I can still confirm that I ovulated, even if it didn't result in a pregnancy (despite our multiple attempts).

It's disappointing, but thank you for your prayers for comfort.  It may also be due to getting into the holiday spirit, but I felt like I was able to accept this new cycle with unexpected ease.  I know that I wouldn't be able to handle this frustration without knowing that God has something bigger for me than I could imagine.  So I do truly appreciate the prayers.

Well, I still can't miscarry if I'm still not pregnant.  I realize that's a morbid way of considering things, but I admit that my thoughts often settle on loss.  As much as I would have loved to have given birth around my husband's birthday, I also do not want to have that day associated with any more loss.

It's a blessing today to know that I only have one more day of work before we leave to celebrate Christmas and the New Year in Montana with my husband's family.  This will be my third Christmas with them, and though I admit that I will miss my immediate family, the in-laws do a great job of making me feel right at home.  And it will be such a blessing to hang out with my nieces and nephews--who I'm sure will keep me busy and help take my mind off what I'm missing.


  1. I'm so sorry Laura. Without the Lord I don't know how I would even get out of bed some mornings. I was really hoping this was your month. You are always in my prayers.

  2. I'm so sorry this wasn't your month. Thinking of you today

  3. So sorry as well. Looking forward to 2010.

  4. I'm sorry darlin'. Here's to hoping 2010 will be lucky for both us :-)


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