Love and Loss on Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day is supposed to be a day of love and celebration.  But at this time last year, my heart was breaking as we suffered our second loss.  I joke that this was my "favorite loss" because it all happened so quickly and without the trauma that I experienced with the first (or third) loss.  But it was still sad and emotionally painful, and I still mourn the loss of that child.

I'm in a very different place now than this time last year.  I'm hopeful that this pregnancy is progressing, and I'm anxiously looking forward to the chance to hear a heartbeat on Tuesday.  I'm acutely aware that my whole world could come crashing down, but for now, I'm hoping and praying for the steady "thump, thump, thump, thump" of a heartbeat.  Please keep us in your prayers as we get closer to the appointment on Tuesday.

Today's blessing is my husband, my Valentine.  I am so blessed to have him in my life.  Although loss is a horrible thing to endure, I do know that my husband and I have grown closer together through this experience, and I think that we have learned how to appreciate each other so much more.  He surprised me with roses on Friday, two days before Valentine's Day...I only got him a card, but I pray that we are both blessed with the gift of a beautiful heartbeat on Tuesday, two days after Valentine's Day.