Yep--we went to our first Lamaze class today. Due to our schedule with summer vacations and my husband's travel for work, it just fit better for us to do one of the long weekend classes instead of the weekly courses.
I was pleased with the amount of information that we received today. However, I left thinking "I may want to try to do a natural birth". What?!?! All along, I've just been saying "I'll do whatever my doctor recommends". And ultimately--I do think that I will do whatever my doctor recommends. I trust her, and I appreciate her knowledge, instinct, and care. But the instructor made some great arguments today for a natural birth, and how pain medication can inhibit various parts of the natural cycle and cause complications for the baby (granted, some complications just can't be avoided). After our experience, bringing this Baby Girl into this world safely and in the most healthy way possible is my #1 goal. If I suffer a little more in the process...I guess I'll just have to try to remind myself that it's all worth it for her. But like I said--I trust my doctor, so if she recommends something for the pain and/or to make it easier for the baby, then I'll go with it (so please don't consider me a hypocrite if I come back two months telling a different story). And who knows--tomorrow's discussion apparently revolves around the various medical interventions possible, so perhaps she'll change my mind (or should I say "help me make up my mind"?).
I think I have a pretty high tolerance for pain. And I've heard from some women that suffering through their miscarriages was sometimes more painful (in a somewhat different way) than the contractions leading up to giving birth. For starters, unlike a miscarriage, you have the joy and exhilaration to which to look forward in a birth, which can take away from the physical pain. My first and third losses (at 12 and 10 weeks, respectively) were pretty rough. If I could get through those experiences with empty arms, I'm hoping that I can tolerate the pain of a God-designed natural childbirth if it means holding a happy and healthy baby in my arms.
Today's blessing was a sweet experience during the relaxation portion of the class. I was sitting between my husband's legs, leaning back against his chest, with his chin resting on the top of my head. The instructor led the group through two different relaxation techniques, and halfway through the second one, I could feel my husband's chin getting heavier and heavier on the top of my head. Sure enough, he was so relaxed that he fell asleep. It just made me feel amazingly safe and amazingly happy to have the man that I love so relaxed behind me, and the Baby Girl that we love safely in my belly and under my hands. I thank God for blessing me with the the two of them.