But with that in mind, rather than starting to obsess about what could be "wrong" with me, I wanted to try to consider what is "right" with me. (And thank you to Christa for the inspiration to adopt a more healthy "mantra").
So...here are the things that I know are "right" with me:
- My spiritual life has brought me closer to Christ than I think I've ever been before
- I've been able to conceive naturally three times
- Thanks to three years of braces, my teeth are straight
- My car is completely paid off
- I've lost a considerable amount of weight from the combination of exercise, healthy diet adjustments, and good ol' Metformin
- My relationship with my family (especially my mom) has never been better than what it is right now
- The doctor says I have a "beautiful uterus" and "perfect tubes"
- I married the man who is absolutely perfect for me and loves me the way I am
- My chromosomes (and those of my husband) are totally normal
- I have friends who love, support, and challenge me at the necessary times
- I have a good schedule that allows me to get just about eight hours of sleep a night
- In such a challenging economy, I have a "good-enough" job with "good-enough" benefits
I could go on--and I need to remind myself of that. I have so many good things going for me. When people start giving me that pity look when I tell them my story, I'm quick to point out that I am perfectly healthy and my husband is perfectly healthy, and that's such a huge blessing. It doesn't negate my desire to have children, but it is a good reminder.
In addition to those listed above, my blessing of the day was running into some of my former student staff members from my previous position. They are in training for the upcoming school year (which was always my favorite time of the entire year), and they totally brought me so much joy both when I worked with them and now. Some students just have that ability to bring joy wherever they go!