I'm feeling a bit out of sorts this week. Nothing is terribly wrong, but I feel like I'm off schedule...and it's throwing me off.
First, my parents went on a well-deserved vacation...and were out of cell phone range. My mom is really my "go-to person" whenever I'm feeling down, and I wasn't able to talk to her all week until they got back into coverage just a bit ago.
Second, LOST was a rerun this week! For the last couple of seasons, they have promised all new episodes, and I'm not too proud to admit that I plan my Tuesdays around the show. It wasn't even one of those recap types of shows when you may learn something that you missed...it was a full-on rerun.
Third, and most significantly, I didn't get to see the baby this week. I had gotten so extremely accustomed to seeing the baby every two weeks--all the way from 8 to 16. I told myself two weeks ago that I could wait three weeks. Now I'm kicking myself that I didn't take my doctor up on the offer to come in this week. At the time, I was riding high on my comfort level roller coaster and was confident that I could handle it...now I'm not so sure. I don't know if I have a legitimate reason to be concerned and worried...but I am. For starters, I haven't seen the baby since the fainting episode. I want to trust that the nurse was right, and that I was just overheated, so I've been guzzling water like crazy. Also, I experienced some shooting pains in my lower abdomen on Monday, and have noticed them to a lesser degree on and off today as well. Although they were noticeable, they were pretty mild, and I'm tempted to believe that they were round ligaments stretching. From what I've read, they seem to match the description. But it will be so reassuring to see the baby again on Wednesday...
Overall, this was one of the busier and crazier weeks at work. But I made it through Thursday, and tomorrow should be easier (not to mention I get to leave early because I stayed late last night). Once I make it through tomorrow, it will be the weekend. And then it will be May...and a new LOST on Tuesday...and a chance to finally see the baby again on Wednesday. May 5th can't get here soon enough...but I feel like it's finally in sight.
Today's blessing is simply being able to talk to my mom again. I am reminded of just how much I appreciate her and need her whenever I'm not able to connect with her. She spent a lot of time on her vacation knitting a baby blanket and looking forward to being a grandmother. I pray that God bless her as she looks forward to this new chapter in her life.
Oh Laura, I am sorry you had a rough week. I am proud of you (and impressed) for going three weeks! I think that when and if I get pregnant again, I definitely won't be able to make it that long. I would worry myself sick. I always think - if I had never gone in for those two ultrasounds (if I had dismissed or ignored the small amount of bleeding), I would have kept thinking I was pregnant for weeks up until my 12 week appointment and it would have been even worse. Keeping you in my prayers (you scared me with your post yesterday!) that you experience peace and comfort to get you through Wednesday! Love you! Katie
ReplyDeleteHoping next week is a more smoothe week for you! I was made about Lost being a rerun too!
ReplyDeleteSorry you are feeling off. My mom is my go to person too! I call her every night. 5 days and counting!
ReplyDeleteI spent a lot of time starting and restarting a baby blanket... but now I think I've got it right.
ReplyDeleteHang in there and know God is in control. My mom is def. my go-to person and I know she's always there to lend a listening ear. We're here for you too.
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