I'd love your feedback. I'm debating whether or not I should take a test; and if so, then when. I haven't "wasted" a test since my last loss, and I'd rather not start now. There is just something so demoralizing about a negative test...and I only have one left from my last purchase, so I want it to be put to good use. When I'm tracking my temperature, I have some sort of indication of where I am in the post-ovulation calendar. But since I didn't track this cycle, I'm rather clueless. Here is what I do know:
- Today is Day 32
- My last five cycles (since the third loss) have been 33, 32, 32, 30, 30 days (the more recent being 30 days)
- I've had no spotting (but my cycles typically start with spotting 2-3 days before it really starts)
- My breasts have been sore since the weekend (but perhaps that's from poking them every five minutes)
- My face has broken out (but last week was the first week of classes...so perhaps it was due to stress)
When I try to take a step back and put it all in perspective, part of me realizes that I should say "what's the rush?" and just hand it all over to God. But then the other part of me really wants to be pregnant...and really wants to know.
So what do you think? I'm open to your feedback.
In reflecting on my blessings, the first thing that came to mind is how thankful I am to have this venue and the relationships that I have developed through this blog. When I feel like there is no one else who understands what I'm going through, I realize how blessed I am to have all of you and your support. Thank you.