Wednesday, January 20, 2010


I feel kind of silly putting this out there.  I wonder if anyone else gets this way...or is it just me?  I apologize ahead of time if I'm being too dramatic...

I'd love your feedback.  I'm debating whether or not I should take a test; and if so, then when.  I haven't "wasted" a test since my last loss, and I'd rather not start now.  There is just something so demoralizing about a negative test...and I only have one left from my last purchase, so I want it to be put to good use.  When I'm tracking my temperature, I have some sort of indication of where I am in the post-ovulation calendar.  But since I didn't track this cycle, I'm rather clueless.  Here is what I do know:
  • Today is Day 32
  • My last five cycles (since the third loss) have been 33, 32, 32, 30, 30 days (the more recent being 30 days)
  • I've had no spotting (but my cycles typically start with spotting 2-3 days before it really starts)
  • My breasts have been sore since the weekend (but perhaps that's from poking them every five minutes)
  • My face has broken out (but last week was the first week of perhaps it was due to stress)
I originally told myself that I would wait the full five weeks until Saturday...but then I start getting ahead of myself, thinking about betas and turnaround times at the RE's office and when I could slip away from work. If I waited until Saturday, the RE's office will be closed.  So if I waited until Friday morning, I could call the RE first thing in the morning and hope that they could get me in to do the beta bloodwork and hope that it fits with my schedule that day and then hope that they could get the results back to me before the weekend (this is all assuming that it's a positive test...of course).  So if I wanted to pad that turnaround time a bit, that would put me at Thursday...which is tomorrow.  But then I start wondering if that's too early to test.  So then I'm back at square one.

When I try to take a step back and put it all in perspective, part of me realizes that I should say "what's the rush?" and just hand it all over to God.  But then the other part of me really wants to be pregnant...and really wants to know.

So what do you think?  I'm open to your feedback.

In reflecting on my blessings, the first thing that came to mind is how thankful I am to have this venue and the relationships that I have developed through this blog.  When I feel like there is no one else who understands what I'm going through, I realize how blessed I am to have all of you and your support.  Thank you.


  1. Hey Laura, I was in your shoes last week, so don't worry you're not being dramatic. I saw my doctor on Monday and told him how freaked out I was because I needed to know when I should test as my period was due on a Friday. He reassured me that I have nothing to worry about. He let me know that if I'm to to menstruate on a Friday and I can't get a blood test till Monday it's not the end of the world. He said that if the pregnancy is healthy it will progress and it won't hurt anything to have waited a couple of days to get a blood test.

    That being said, if I were you I would take a urine test on Thursday morning with your wake up urine, to calm your nerves a bit. The good thing about a negative early on, is that it levels your expectations. It could mean your period is coming (so in a way you're not as surprised when it arrives) but on the other hand, if your period doesn't arrive, you know that the first test you did might have been too early so no need to worry.

    By testing at home on Thursday, you can get through your day without as many worries. Then on Friday if you still haven't menstruated yet, call your RE for a blood test. You'd be on CD 34 which is a good time for an HCG. Blood tests are much more sensitive than urine tests so you'd have a definitive answer before the weekend.

    Hope this helps, let me know how things go.

  2. Hmmmm, I think I would test on Friday. My reasoning for this is that you would be past your longest cycle in 6 months....and by that time you should get a positive on a hpt. It will give you enough time to get into the RE as at most places they don't have to schedule the blood draw.....and it gives you another 2 days to start spotting and not waste a test if it is going to be negative....I am praying that it is positive on Friday :)

  3. ** you are not being silly, this is what this forum is for!

    Anyhoo, I totally understand the anxiousness you are feeling about this but I think I would wait until Friday morning to test as well (hpt). If it's positive (and I'm praying it is!), I would go in for a blood test the same day (if you can get away from work at lunch or take off early after your last class) - I know it's hard to think either way but no matter what happens, God is in control and the result will stay the same whether you cave in and test Thursday, Friday or Saturday!

    The last time I tested I put it off until CD 31 (3 days past my cycle) - I think in my head I wasn't ready for disappointment and wanted to give myself that much more hope when AF never came. I realized later it was due to the prog. supp. I was on that delayed my AF and not a BFP.

    Hoping for you!!!

  4. Laura I am with Dawn's advice. I know being told to wait is the absolute worst but I think it would be the best scenario either way. This way you know with very little doubt that it is not too early. Even if you took the test Thurs and it showed negative you would have that terrible lingering feeling wondering if you tested too early. I am so absolutely praying that you get a positive!

  5. LOL, this is like a play by play of the inside of my brain. I've given myself a pass with the dollar store tests. It's been long enough for me now that I am used to negative tests, so I save the "real" tests for when there is a true shot... and then I go nuts with dollar store. I just say they don't count. I don't have any advice I'm afraid... but I suspect a negative from a HPT is much easier than from Dr. H's office. Heck, just go for it.

  6. Hey Laura! Thanks for leaving such sweet and uplifting comments on my blog! I really appreciate them! I think anyone who has been TTC for an extended period of times knows EXACTLY what you are going through. I personally do not like taking tests until I know I am late starting my next cycle. I just don't like to get all excited and then be let down when the test is BFN. Also, I'm such a tight wad, I hate to waste the money on a test, when more than likely it is going to be negative (sounds so pessimistic, I know, but it's just the things I'm thinking when I'm considering taking a test). I'm like you, and usually begin spotting a little 3-5 days before I actually start my period, so if I get about 2 days before my period and I haven't started spotting, I might take a test. I agree with Kate above in thinking a negative HPT is easier than waiting for a doctor's call and then hearing from them the bad news. I can't WAIT to hear YOUR news and hopefully we will all be celebrating a BFP with you shortly!

  7. Hey, I am nowhere near as knowledgeable as the ladies above, but you could just go to the $ store like I do and get ALOT of tests. My doctor told me that they use the dollar store tests and that they are the most accurate. I have heard of this from many of my friends since then as well (who got the info from their doctors). Just saying, you could go buy alot more on the cheapo and then test everyday like I do (because I am a NUT JOB). PRAYING FOR A POSITIVE.

  8. I don't like to get negative tests, so I would also wait until Friday and test then. :)


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